Monday, June 20, 2011
Is this legally considered , If so what should I do?
Hi guys, I have a really sticky situation, and I ask that you give your honest opinion but spare the judgment. I don't need to hear how I shouldn't be drinking/partying. Alright, so I am a freshman in college. Before this happened I was a virgin, shy, not promiscuous whatsoever. So one night I had a little too much to drink, to the point of blackout since I don't remember much. I was with my best friend pan he was ready to leave an he noticed I was too drunk so he took me home. Well silly me, always wanting to party, was not ready to leave so I walked home with him and then went out again. I was partying with these guys that I had been friends with for a while and trusted, I even ped out on their couch once. Well all I remember is I'm dancing with my friend Dan (whom I know very well and trust) and then I remember sitting on the floor in a room, almost crying (because I get emotional sometimes when I'm drunk for no reason) and some guy asking me to do ual favors to me (not ) and for some reason I followed? I'm so stupid I know. I guess when I'm drunk I need attention and like to feel wanted. But it does not mean (at all) that I was willing to do anything. Next thing I remember I'm on a bed.. and throwing up into a trash can next to the bed. All i remember next is some guy trying to do something to me but for some reason but I kept saying no im on my period, ( I remembered I had a tampon in and was embarred) . He was trying to take my pants off and said he wanted to, excuse my language, eat me out, but I said I was on my period and did not want it at all. I didn't even know where I was or who I was with. I was throwing up for gods sake. Ive never been this drunk before, I was blacked out for sure. I remember asking for a condom, because I think I noticed he was trying to do something and that's all I could say. Why I said that, I don't know I'm so stupid because then i remember he finally left but came back, and next thing I remember my pants are being taken off but everything was happening too fast and i couldn't process it, i didn't know what was going on. I remember unoning my pants a little (but thats it? and for some reason I thought we were going to other stuff, not ) and last some guy on top of me but I felt like i was drifting in and out of consciousness, and I remember saying ouch it hurts and I tried to move away a little but I couldn't. I was completely helpless. I just wanted it to stop, because it hurt so much. So finally I wake up in the morning, and notice some guy trying to touch me but I move away to the edge of the bed, and curl up in a ball. Once I start to become more aware and wake up, I notice I'm in a room Ive never been in before. And freak out, I ask the guy where my pants were because I wasn't wearing my jeans I was wearing some shorts, and he tries to look for it but I'm so distressed I leave and forget it and my debit card and other sandal. I felt so disgusted. I was so confused I didn't know what happened that night, I go into the bathroom and take out the tampon (sorry for the details) and feel alot of pain. I didn't whether I had sex or not, I was still drunk when I walked back to my building. finally I ask my friends to go ask the guy what happened. and he confirmed there was sex. Opinions please? Idk what to do, I feel so disgusted. He is not someone I would EVER sleep with, in fact I was grossed out. And i was a virgin. And please don't say it was because a way I was portraying myself, because I'm not like that.
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